Monday Check-In Week 1

Monday Check-In:

I decided to create some daily content now for our small and growing community. I'm calling it Monday Check-In as the name of this post implies. Here I will check in with you and share the ups and downs of the last week as well as the goals for the this week. Feel free to comment your own ups and downs as well, as community is one of those things that helps keep us all motivated to get better.

Without further ado:

This last week I lost all motivation. I posted the workouts and half-assed my way through them which is not a great way to accomplish anything. I don't know why but this last week of lockdown really got me down, I felt so isolated and alone that I was trying to find joy in things that don't better my position rather than staying focused.

Some of the ups for the week were joining my jiujitsu gym's live classes. It was good to sweat with some of those folks again, virtually at least. I found out that even though my body is used to eating a lot more calories than normal I will survive if I lower those intakes a bit and I won't gain all this fat that seems to enjoy a nice warm host such as myself. (Now that I have this information I guess we will see what I end up doing with it.)

Like I said above, this week had a lot of downs. If you do not know me personally I have always struggled around people. I get super anxious and feel that I am going to say or do something dumb. I chalked it up to just being introverted and would fake my way through most of my social interactions. Now I feel all those insecurities coming back, even with my wife, which has caused me to become a bit more reclusive than I normally am. I'm not sure why this is happening right now but I feel that it might have something to do with not having the ability to throw in the snow. I think I have been throwing as a way to compensate for these feelings and to clear my mind, almost like a form of moving meditation.

Goals:

This week I will be pushing forward and doing the workouts with a renewed intensity. I have a lot of motivation and am looking forward to lifting my attention towards becoming better at this sport, better at this life, and becoming a better person in general.

Now let's go out and accomplish something today. Even if that something is to change out of your pajamas and put on jeans for the first time in weeks, let's celebrate it.